Death

I'm not afraid to die. Sometimes I feel like I want to (no, I'm not emo), to see what it feels like. To see where you end up. The problem is: You can't get back, if paradise actually isn't a nice place.
So again, I don't want to die. Just think about it. The only reason why humans think that there is a heaven or hell or rebirth, is that they believe in some sort of God (not that I don't think that there is a greater power), who controls everything.

Have you ever thought about where animals go, when they die? They "don't think" (I'm sure they do, though). They probably don't believe in some God. They probably don't believe anything.
Are they going to heaven anyway? We believe so, don't we?

But where do we end up then? It's quite weird to think about going somewhere nobody can find when you die. There must be some place to go, if we go somewhere. Can't we just die and nothing happens?
The soul and energy and everything else maybe just dies. Maybe it doesn't fly away and live on as a ghost or something.

Just a few days ago, I was learning about how pigs look on the inside. That means, cut them apart, and look at their stomach, heart and all that stuff.
What if that little pig, was flying around as a ghost?
I know it sounds crazy, but what if it could see what happened to it's dead body? Without any reason.
That's quite weird to think about.

Some people believe that our energy becomes a part of the greater power. And we live on as the greater power. But why would you want to do that? You can't really decide anything anymore, because everyone who has ever died, is a part of the greater power. And who is in charge of all that?

Now, what I think is this: You live, you die and then it starts over. This is the easiest way for a God or anything to do it.
You have some sort of repeat function, so when your track is finished, the music starts over.
Nobody will notice, because they're track doesn't finish at the same time as yours. They'll live on, when you start over. At some point you might meet some of the people again, and this maybe is where deja vu comes from.
If something goes wrong when you're reset, there might be some memories left. Also, you will not have the same life always. There probably will be some butterfly effect. Your parents might raise you differently in the second round.

The only thing that scares me a bit in that thought is that the butterfly effect might be very serious. What if your parents don't meet again? Will your energy then be devided 50-50 on your mum's baby and your dad's baby (comment if this was kinda unclear to you).
Maybe you just wait for the next time. And that is what heaven is for.

The reason why I don't want to die is, that I can't take anything with me. Experiences, beloved ones, money, success, anything. It will all be gone. So why bother? Fine, you had a great life while you were here. Maybe you inspired someone, and they remember you. But will you notice? No. You'll just be dead, and you will not be able to see if anybody liked what you did when you lived.

Okay, enough scary philosophy for this time. See you in the next lesson. Until then check this out.